went in to St Helens hospital yesterday for my Hysteroscopy and Polectomy. As it turned out the scan was wrong and there was no growth so no cancer. I and most of my family are relieved but of course one particular person is dissapointed, I can't believe she hates me that much.
Done a bit of art (if you can call it that) today. Not sure whether I will share it, it is so bad.
Can't wait for the yarn to arrive to start on my big project, for hubby's xmas. I am really excited about knitting this item. It will be a total challenge but well worth it.
Looking forward to coffee with friends tomorrow, not seen some of these friends for a long long time so should be nice. Nothing in news yet from the wandering duo, I wish they would get in touch, I can't help but fret.
anyway that's all for now.
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Monday, 31 October 2011
Tut
trust me to forget to write my blog. Been too busy by far to be honest.
The jacket turned out fab, I have had it on most days so it is currently in for washing but I'll post a pic when it's nice and clean again. I also knitting the dog a jacket out of the same yarn and myself a baker boy cap and so far one wristwarmer/fingerless glove. Other one should be done today.
On other news I've had a lady bleed which means something isn't right. Doctor got me an appointment in double quick time with the hospital and after some scans and further investigation they have decided to take me in for a hysteroscopy under anesthetic so that's being done tomorrow. I texted her to let her know that it was happening and that there is the possiblity that it could be cancerous but apparently I have made this up as a sad attempt at getting her back here. (I wish)
Hubby is not dealing with this very well, he's trying to put on a brave face but I know he's flapping. The very mention of cancer and he's off on a panic. Me well I'm also putting on a brave face but doing a more convincing job of it. I'll do my panic when the results are due on the 16th November, oddly enough my dad's birthday (when he would have been 78)
David and Phill came for a visit, got about an hour with them before they went off. Cried a lot about the fact that I won't know when I will see them again. They are off to Gran Canaria for 6 months then from there back to Cyprus via Spain not UK till October. This will be my first Xmas without David and I am dreading it.
Anyway my knitting pins call, I have a couple of long stocking caps to finish for a friend for which I will be paid. I'll try and remember to update my blog soon. Not that anyone is actually reading it but I like looking back to see what I was up to and when.
The jacket turned out fab, I have had it on most days so it is currently in for washing but I'll post a pic when it's nice and clean again. I also knitting the dog a jacket out of the same yarn and myself a baker boy cap and so far one wristwarmer/fingerless glove. Other one should be done today.
On other news I've had a lady bleed which means something isn't right. Doctor got me an appointment in double quick time with the hospital and after some scans and further investigation they have decided to take me in for a hysteroscopy under anesthetic so that's being done tomorrow. I texted her to let her know that it was happening and that there is the possiblity that it could be cancerous but apparently I have made this up as a sad attempt at getting her back here. (I wish)
Hubby is not dealing with this very well, he's trying to put on a brave face but I know he's flapping. The very mention of cancer and he's off on a panic. Me well I'm also putting on a brave face but doing a more convincing job of it. I'll do my panic when the results are due on the 16th November, oddly enough my dad's birthday (when he would have been 78)
David and Phill came for a visit, got about an hour with them before they went off. Cried a lot about the fact that I won't know when I will see them again. They are off to Gran Canaria for 6 months then from there back to Cyprus via Spain not UK till October. This will be my first Xmas without David and I am dreading it.
Anyway my knitting pins call, I have a couple of long stocking caps to finish for a friend for which I will be paid. I'll try and remember to update my blog soon. Not that anyone is actually reading it but I like looking back to see what I was up to and when.
Friday, 7 October 2011
Shocker
Well not really!! Hubby and I went at the alloted time for our meeting with police. Needless to say we were on time and they were late. She turned up about 5 mins late and launched into how she thought that I should change my mobile number to stop Tasha from contacting me. Yea that's a great idea, change the number I have had for years loose contact with people (as you always do when you change numbers) yea of course I will, NOT! I refuse to let her get the upper hand. Any'way, what happens if she somehow (although I doubt it) decides she wants to get in touch in a nice way?
He turned up 30 mins late, all apologies that he was doing police business and it couldnt be helped. My question is of course why make the appointment then. He stood up as though to leave and said somethign about oh well then we won't have the meeting. I pointed out it was them who had asked for the meeting not us, we just would have been happy to do it by phone.
He started on about how Tash was happy where she is and she was obviously not coming back and how she is now nearly 17 (WTF???) they seem to love this nearly thing, apparently in December last year she was nearly 16 (with 4 months to go) when those photos went out. Anyway I let him rabbit on about how she isn't being abused she isn't being controlled, she is free to come and go as she pleases and is not isolated. I gave up by this point and stopped him but not before she put her tuppence worth in by telling me that I was at fault because I was threatening Tasha, apparently I had sent her a text saying if she wasn't back here in 2 weeks I was gonna torch their home. I asked if she had seen all or any of the so called threats and apparently no because they had accidently been deleted, OMG how thick and gullible are these people, they haven't been deleted because they don't exist not now not ever. I offered her the opportunity to read all the texts on my phone but she declined, saying that she doesn't have the time to be go between with me and Tasha, WHAT!!! she's meant to be a mediator that's what they do.
Anyway I asked him about what his colleague had said and apparently I must be mistaken. Oh and conveniently his colleague was not available to come to the meeting as he was on leave. Oh yea right! I asked for him to confirm that it was not on file that me and hubby are people who are violent and drink loads and he said it wasn't so we got up and left.
In the middle of all this I got a text telling me uncle James had died and I had to phone my mum to let her know. Oh great!!
Anyway knitting is still ongoing, finished the entrelac, a long stocking cap and am now doing my own jacket. It's looking good. I went to a group today about quilting and might have a go at that too.
He turned up 30 mins late, all apologies that he was doing police business and it couldnt be helped. My question is of course why make the appointment then. He stood up as though to leave and said somethign about oh well then we won't have the meeting. I pointed out it was them who had asked for the meeting not us, we just would have been happy to do it by phone.
He started on about how Tash was happy where she is and she was obviously not coming back and how she is now nearly 17 (WTF???) they seem to love this nearly thing, apparently in December last year she was nearly 16 (with 4 months to go) when those photos went out. Anyway I let him rabbit on about how she isn't being abused she isn't being controlled, she is free to come and go as she pleases and is not isolated. I gave up by this point and stopped him but not before she put her tuppence worth in by telling me that I was at fault because I was threatening Tasha, apparently I had sent her a text saying if she wasn't back here in 2 weeks I was gonna torch their home. I asked if she had seen all or any of the so called threats and apparently no because they had accidently been deleted, OMG how thick and gullible are these people, they haven't been deleted because they don't exist not now not ever. I offered her the opportunity to read all the texts on my phone but she declined, saying that she doesn't have the time to be go between with me and Tasha, WHAT!!! she's meant to be a mediator that's what they do.
Anyway I asked him about what his colleague had said and apparently I must be mistaken. Oh and conveniently his colleague was not available to come to the meeting as he was on leave. Oh yea right! I asked for him to confirm that it was not on file that me and hubby are people who are violent and drink loads and he said it wasn't so we got up and left.
In the middle of all this I got a text telling me uncle James had died and I had to phone my mum to let her know. Oh great!!
Anyway knitting is still ongoing, finished the entrelac, a long stocking cap and am now doing my own jacket. It's looking good. I went to a group today about quilting and might have a go at that too.
Thursday, 29 September 2011
And off she goes
yep so much for a good weekend, seems that she had other ideas. Started with me letting her know that we don't have her phone, then the abuse lies the lot started. She also threatened to gfet Amy and well things got very heated. And that was just Saturday my couple of glasses of wine ended up me hammered through pure temper.
Sunday was texts telling me to stop talking to her friends about her, me and Amy, didn't have a clue what she was on about. It eventually dawned that she was talking about something from months ago. Typical of her. Big arguments with Amy and Amy offered her the opportunity of a fight and oh yes Tash was up for it, she'd meet her at 12.45 on Monday and beat the shit out of her. Then she dropped into the conversation that she is pregnant. I sort of reckon it was her way of getting out of the fight. Amy said oh so you won't be fighting then but she said she would.
Monday 12.45 no sign of her so I sent a text saying Amy was waiting and I got told by him that she was with Maria at the police getting me charged for hitting her with a phone. Scary that she keeps harping back to that one thing. Anyway I texted Maria and surprise surprise all lies.
Got my meeting with the police and Maria on Friday to try and get our names cleared of the accusations she has made. Doctor has added me an extra pill and gave me more sleepers.
Roll on Friday because once I get that sorted I think I should be moving on.
Knitting and crocheting still going on. Have followed my first pattern and crochet some hats, plain but functional.
Sunday was texts telling me to stop talking to her friends about her, me and Amy, didn't have a clue what she was on about. It eventually dawned that she was talking about something from months ago. Typical of her. Big arguments with Amy and Amy offered her the opportunity of a fight and oh yes Tash was up for it, she'd meet her at 12.45 on Monday and beat the shit out of her. Then she dropped into the conversation that she is pregnant. I sort of reckon it was her way of getting out of the fight. Amy said oh so you won't be fighting then but she said she would.
Monday 12.45 no sign of her so I sent a text saying Amy was waiting and I got told by him that she was with Maria at the police getting me charged for hitting her with a phone. Scary that she keeps harping back to that one thing. Anyway I texted Maria and surprise surprise all lies.
Got my meeting with the police and Maria on Friday to try and get our names cleared of the accusations she has made. Doctor has added me an extra pill and gave me more sleepers.
Roll on Friday because once I get that sorted I think I should be moving on.
Knitting and crocheting still going on. Have followed my first pattern and crochet some hats, plain but functional.
Thursday, 22 September 2011
Yarn Mountain
I seem to be getting quite a collection of knitted items and balls of yarn yet to be used. I am also dabblin in attempts at art, but attempt is the operative word. The sketches look like something from a horror movie and the attempt at a painting looks like something a child would do. Mind you a lot of so called fine art looks like a kid did it anyway.
On other news the bedroom isn't finished yet due to the fact we ran out of emulsion with half a wall to do. I am planning on getting another pot of emulsion either today or tomorrow then we can finish it while hubby is on his 4 day weekend. I am still itching to get the wallpaper up but cant till the painting is all finished.
Counselling is going ok but unfortunately my 10 sessions are nearly up, only 3 more to go. A friend of mine has mentioned something in her facebook that interests me and I will be mentioning it to the doctor when I see her on Monday it's called Schema Therapy and I've looked it up online and based on the example question list on there I certainly would qualify for it.
Oh well the Entrelac jumper is calling and I must go order another ball of yarn for it as I'm going to run out.
On other news the bedroom isn't finished yet due to the fact we ran out of emulsion with half a wall to do. I am planning on getting another pot of emulsion either today or tomorrow then we can finish it while hubby is on his 4 day weekend. I am still itching to get the wallpaper up but cant till the painting is all finished.
Counselling is going ok but unfortunately my 10 sessions are nearly up, only 3 more to go. A friend of mine has mentioned something in her facebook that interests me and I will be mentioning it to the doctor when I see her on Monday it's called Schema Therapy and I've looked it up online and based on the example question list on there I certainly would qualify for it.
Oh well the Entrelac jumper is calling and I must go order another ball of yarn for it as I'm going to run out.
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
Practice makes perfect
I have just sewn together a few squares of crochet. I am well pleased with the result, much much neater than my previous attempts at crochet. Comes from buying a knitting magazine which happens to have a couple of pages about crochet and just happened to have the instructions for doing proper granny squares. I am hoping that more yarn will be purchased this week to make more squares and make this bigger, maybe big enough to put on our bed. I am enjoying using a crochet hook, I find the repetitiveness of doing trebles quite relaxing and it grows really quickly. I am still knitting though, got chunky knit ntrelac jumper on the go, in shades of pink. I am hoping that I can sell the finished item in my new Etsy shop. Mind you I am not having much luck selling my hats and they are really fashionable.
On other news, all this knitting etc is serving well to keep a certain someone out of my mind. Hoping that I have turned the corner on this one. I just wish that bloody social worker would sort out this appointment with me, her and the police so I can clear up a few things. I need them to realise that Alex and myself are not what they believe us to be. Apart from anything if we prove that to them they will have to accept how much of an accomplished liar she is and how she can make anyone believe anything she says. I want that police officer to apologise for telling me that me and Alex obviously have a serious drink problem and are violent people. Once I get that matter clarified then I should be able to move forward.
I am missing my penpal Jilly, she's gone to the USA on holiday and I miss getting my daily inbox from her. I am looking foward to this weekend, hubby is off for 4 days so maybe we can get some wine and go visit Leona.
On other news, all this knitting etc is serving well to keep a certain someone out of my mind. Hoping that I have turned the corner on this one. I just wish that bloody social worker would sort out this appointment with me, her and the police so I can clear up a few things. I need them to realise that Alex and myself are not what they believe us to be. Apart from anything if we prove that to them they will have to accept how much of an accomplished liar she is and how she can make anyone believe anything she says. I want that police officer to apologise for telling me that me and Alex obviously have a serious drink problem and are violent people. Once I get that matter clarified then I should be able to move forward.
I am missing my penpal Jilly, she's gone to the USA on holiday and I miss getting my daily inbox from her. I am looking foward to this weekend, hubby is off for 4 days so maybe we can get some wine and go visit Leona.
Sunday, 18 September 2011
Will I keep this up?
I've blogged n the past but gave it up because it was mostly doom and gloom. I will probably post a lot of doom and gloom in here but it's my blog and I'll post what I want and if I feel down then that's what I will post.
At the moment I have a lot of projects on the go. I am knitting hats like there is no tomorrow, I have lots of wonderful baker boys hats, all hand knitted and all really good quality. I have tried advertising them on ebay but it seems no one wants to buy them. Surely £10 isn't too much to ask for them? Oh well looks like everyone will get hats at Yule lol.
I have started to crochet too. Just granny squares but it's a start, I will crochet lots of random coloured squares, using up all my odds and sods of yarn, then eventually sew the together to make cushions or blankets. I love the way they grow so quickly.
Baby hats are also flying off my needles, again with a view to selling them but not sure where. I might knit loads then take a table at a car boot locally. Sell them off at that.
I'm dabbling in art just now too. I have done a few sketches, none of which really look like the person they are meant to be, but it's good practise at getting the shading right. I was greatly surprised when an artist friend of mine said she liked them. One of these days I might draw something that actually looks like what it is. lol.
All of the things I am doing are to keep my mind occupied and stop me from thinking about what has happened. If I sit and do nothing I find myself filling up with tears and getting really upset. I am bloody determined that never again will I let anyone in that far beyond my personal barriers. I love my hubby but even he is kept at a slight distance. With her I let all my barriers down and took her right into my heart which is why she has managed to hurt me as much as she has. Oh well a lesson learned.
Right now back to the drawing board, literally lol.
At the moment I have a lot of projects on the go. I am knitting hats like there is no tomorrow, I have lots of wonderful baker boys hats, all hand knitted and all really good quality. I have tried advertising them on ebay but it seems no one wants to buy them. Surely £10 isn't too much to ask for them? Oh well looks like everyone will get hats at Yule lol.
I have started to crochet too. Just granny squares but it's a start, I will crochet lots of random coloured squares, using up all my odds and sods of yarn, then eventually sew the together to make cushions or blankets. I love the way they grow so quickly.
Baby hats are also flying off my needles, again with a view to selling them but not sure where. I might knit loads then take a table at a car boot locally. Sell them off at that.
I'm dabbling in art just now too. I have done a few sketches, none of which really look like the person they are meant to be, but it's good practise at getting the shading right. I was greatly surprised when an artist friend of mine said she liked them. One of these days I might draw something that actually looks like what it is. lol.
All of the things I am doing are to keep my mind occupied and stop me from thinking about what has happened. If I sit and do nothing I find myself filling up with tears and getting really upset. I am bloody determined that never again will I let anyone in that far beyond my personal barriers. I love my hubby but even he is kept at a slight distance. With her I let all my barriers down and took her right into my heart which is why she has managed to hurt me as much as she has. Oh well a lesson learned.
Right now back to the drawing board, literally lol.
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