Will I keep this up?

I've blogged n the past but gave it up because it was mostly doom and gloom.  I will probably post a lot of doom and gloom in here but it's my blog and I'll post what I want and if I feel down then that's what I will post.

At the moment I have a lot of projects on the go.  I am knitting hats like there is no tomorrow, I have lots of wonderful baker boys hats, all hand knitted and all really good quality.  I have tried advertising them on ebay but it seems no one wants to buy them. Surely £10 isn't too much to ask for them? Oh well looks like everyone will get hats at Yule lol.

I have started to crochet too.  Just granny squares but it's a start, I will crochet lots of random coloured squares, using up all my odds and sods of yarn, then eventually sew the together to make cushions or blankets.  I love the way they grow so quickly.

Baby hats are also flying off my needles, again with a view to selling them but not sure where.  I might knit loads then take a table at a car boot locally.  Sell them off at that.

I'm dabbling in art just now too.  I have done a few sketches, none of which really look like the person they are meant to be, but it's good practise at getting the shading right.  I was greatly surprised when an artist friend of mine said she liked them.  One of these days I might draw something that actually looks like what it is. lol.

All of the things I am doing are to keep my mind occupied and stop me from thinking about what has happened.  If I sit and do nothing I find myself filling up with tears and getting really upset.  I am bloody determined that never again will I let anyone in that far beyond my personal barriers.  I love my hubby but even he is kept at a slight distance.  With her I let all my barriers down and took her right into my heart which is why she has managed to hurt me as much as she has.  Oh well a lesson learned.

Right now back to the drawing board, literally lol.