And off she goes

yep so much for a good weekend, seems that she had other ideas.  Started with me letting her know that we don't have her phone, then the abuse lies the lot started.  She also threatened to gfet Amy and well things got very heated. And that was just Saturday my couple of glasses of wine ended up me hammered through pure temper.

Sunday was texts telling me to stop talking to her friends about her, me and Amy, didn't have a clue what she was on about.  It eventually dawned that she was talking about something from months ago.  Typical of her.  Big arguments with Amy and Amy offered her the opportunity of a fight and oh yes Tash was up for it, she'd meet her at 12.45 on Monday and beat the shit out of her.  Then she dropped into the conversation that she is pregnant.  I sort of reckon it was her way of getting out of the fight.  Amy said oh so you won't be fighting then but she said she would.

Monday 12.45 no sign of her so I sent a text saying Amy was waiting and I got told by him that she was with Maria at the police getting me charged for hitting her with a phone.  Scary that she keeps harping back to that one thing.  Anyway I texted Maria and surprise surprise all lies.

Got my meeting with the police and Maria on Friday to try and get our names cleared of the accusations she has made.  Doctor has added me an extra pill and gave me more sleepers.

Roll on Friday because once I get that sorted I think I should be moving on.

Knitting and crocheting still going on.  Have followed my first pattern and crochet some hats, plain but functional.

Yarn Mountain

I seem to be getting quite a collection of knitted items and balls of yarn yet to be used.  I am also dabblin in attempts at art, but attempt is the operative word.  The sketches look like something from a horror movie and the attempt at a painting looks like something a child would do.  Mind you a lot of so called fine art looks like a kid did it anyway.

On other news the bedroom isn't finished yet due to the fact we ran out of emulsion with half a wall to do.  I am planning on getting another pot of emulsion either today or tomorrow then we can finish it while hubby is on his 4 day weekend.  I am still itching to get the wallpaper up but cant till the painting is all finished.

Counselling is going ok but unfortunately my 10 sessions are nearly up, only 3 more to go.  A friend of mine has mentioned something in her facebook that interests me and I will be mentioning it to the doctor when I see her on Monday it's called Schema Therapy and I've looked it up online and based on the example question list on there I certainly would qualify for it.

Oh well the Entrelac jumper is calling and I must go order another ball of yarn for it as I'm going to run out.

Practice makes perfect

I have just sewn together a few squares of crochet.  I am well pleased with the result, much much neater than my previous attempts at crochet.  Comes from buying a knitting magazine which happens to have a couple of pages about crochet and just happened to have the instructions for doing proper granny squares.  I am hoping that more yarn will be purchased this week to make more squares and make this bigger, maybe big enough to put on our bed.  I am enjoying using a crochet hook, I find the repetitiveness of doing trebles quite relaxing and it grows really quickly.  I  am still knitting though, got chunky knit ntrelac jumper on the go, in shades of pink.  I am hoping that I can sell the finished item in my new Etsy shop.  Mind you I am not having much luck selling my hats and they are really fashionable.

On other news, all this knitting etc is serving well to keep a certain someone out of my mind.  Hoping that I have turned the corner on this one.  I just wish that bloody social worker would sort out this appointment with me, her and the police so I can clear up a few things.  I need them to realise that Alex and myself are not what they believe us to be.  Apart from anything if we prove that to them they will have to accept how much of an accomplished liar she is and how she can make anyone believe anything she says.  I want that police officer to apologise for telling me that me and Alex obviously have a serious drink problem and are violent people.  Once I get that matter clarified then I should be able to move forward.

I am missing my penpal Jilly, she's gone to the USA on holiday and I miss getting my daily inbox from her.  I am looking foward to this weekend, hubby is off for 4 days so maybe we can get some wine and go visit Leona.

Will I keep this up?

I've blogged n the past but gave it up because it was mostly doom and gloom.  I will probably post a lot of doom and gloom in here but it's my blog and I'll post what I want and if I feel down then that's what I will post.

At the moment I have a lot of projects on the go.  I am knitting hats like there is no tomorrow, I have lots of wonderful baker boys hats, all hand knitted and all really good quality.  I have tried advertising them on ebay but it seems no one wants to buy them. Surely £10 isn't too much to ask for them? Oh well looks like everyone will get hats at Yule lol.

I have started to crochet too.  Just granny squares but it's a start, I will crochet lots of random coloured squares, using up all my odds and sods of yarn, then eventually sew the together to make cushions or blankets.  I love the way they grow so quickly.

Baby hats are also flying off my needles, again with a view to selling them but not sure where.  I might knit loads then take a table at a car boot locally.  Sell them off at that.

I'm dabbling in art just now too.  I have done a few sketches, none of which really look like the person they are meant to be, but it's good practise at getting the shading right.  I was greatly surprised when an artist friend of mine said she liked them.  One of these days I might draw something that actually looks like what it is. lol.

All of the things I am doing are to keep my mind occupied and stop me from thinking about what has happened.  If I sit and do nothing I find myself filling up with tears and getting really upset.  I am bloody determined that never again will I let anyone in that far beyond my personal barriers.  I love my hubby but even he is kept at a slight distance.  With her I let all my barriers down and took her right into my heart which is why she has managed to hurt me as much as she has.  Oh well a lesson learned.

Right now back to the drawing board, literally lol.